Treasured moments captured on film

When I first read your email about writing the letter I became very emotional. It brought up a lot of feelings of appreciation that I haven’t been able to express. The truth is that these photos are so important to me, but I had to filter my thoughts before writing the letter. However, I think you should know exactly how I feel with no filters.

As I have walked through this process of grieving my child, I have had a mix of emotions.

Some days I feel empowered because of the strength that came out of me and my two kids during Téah’s treatments. Some days I feel happiness for her that she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. Most days I missed her so much it hurts. And then there are times when fear and guilt darken my days. On those days I replay our toughest times and my worst moments. Moments when I let fear build up and it would come out as anger and frustration. I grieve those moments because I don’t like that I chose anger over love and understanding and I feel immense guilt. Or memories of Téah experiencing extreme anxiety over a procedure – so hard! Sometimes the tough moments seem to outweigh the good, but then I can pull out those pictures and peace washes over me. I remember that there were WAY more good moments than bad, Téah was very happy even in the middle of her treatment time and, most importantly, she loved me. Even at my worst moment she loved me and forgave me.

This is what you do for people. You help them remember the good and it also helps them remember who their child was. Nearly every part of Téah was captured in our photographs. So amazing! Thank you!!

Blessings,
Faith

Treasured moments captured on film

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